FET #1: Lining Scan.

Yesterday I had a scan to check the thickness of my womb lining, I know I get all the fun! At this point it was my 30th day of Buserelin injections and my 12th day of taking the Progynova tablets (of which there are three a day). The sideffects of both are really catching up with me now. Whilst the headaches and dehydration have settled down, the sleep disturbances and nausea are still kicking my butt. Ever since my prolonged absence seizure, I’ve been in a funk. The huge amount of positivity I had for this FET (frozen embryo transfer) cycle just vanished when that seizure came along. For just over a week now I have been feeling so low and could not seem to pull myself out of the well of negativity. That was until yesterday, when I got handed a ladder in the form of my womb lining! Continue reading


UK National Fertility Awareness Week.

Today marks the start of National  Fertility Awareness Week here in the UK. All this week I am sharing facts and personal stories on my Instagram (LottieHope) my Twitter account (@HopeEpiMum ) and my Facebook account. Here in the UK one in six couples struggle with fertility issues. This week is about raising awareness and helping get rid of some of that stigma/taboo that surrounds infertility. I stand proudly and wear my IVF badge with pride, this is part of me and I will not be silenced or ashamed of that. I will be blogging as much as I can this week, especially as it coincides with my starting week of our FET. Continue reading

FET#1 Train:Waiting.

It seems the FET (Frozen Embryo Transfer) train is pulling into the station. Toot toot! Today the clinic rang me at 8:30, I was still asleep so the nurse got a very slurred “hello” mid yawn. Of course this made the nurse laugh and apologised for waking me up. I replied in typical British fashion ie apologising over and over. Once that was over we moved onto the real reason for the call, my medicated frozen embryo transfer cycle! Continue reading

FET You Waiting, Huh?

It’s hard to describe that feeling of joy of seeing a period when you’re waiting to start an IVF cycle. To the outside it seems ridiculous. You’re trying to conceive yet you’re excited your period has come? How does that make sense? Period means empty womb normally doesn’t it? Well, yes, oh fertile one you are correct. However, when you’re waiting to start fertility treatment all you want is that period. That period means you can get on with undergoing the medical help you need for that so longed for baby. That period likes to toy with you though. You can have regular periods but as soon as you want it to come, it’s nowhere to be seen. Continue reading


Age is just a number, or so the saying goes. Age is a huge talking point with IVF. The NHS funding has an upper age limit for IVF of 40 years old for the female partner. The media talks about how “women are putting off” having children hence a rise in IVF numbers. Infertility affects people of all ages. A woman with fertility issues at 23 years old will have the same issues at 33years old. Yet this isn’t talked about. Younger women ie those in their mid twenties, going through fertility treatment are often looked down on or dismissed. I myself have been told by people within the trying to conceive community that I am “just a young’un” and that I have “plenty of time”. Continue reading


So no one told you life was gonna be this way? Clap clap clap clap clap. Yeah they didn’t, but then again they probably didn’t know. Who is/are they anyway? Moving on. I don’t know anyone who doesn’t recognise the Friends theme song. Or indeed the characters names. Rachel, Monica, Pheobe, Joey, Chandler and Ross. Today I’m blogging about Monica. Specifically Monica during the time her and Chandler are trying for a baby.  Continue reading


I haven’t update this blog in over a week, life got in the way of writing, more specifically moving house got in the way of writing. Then I had to wait until our internet got installed before uploading this post and well here we are. The move all went fairly smoothly and we are now onto the fun bit of unpacking all our belongings. Would be easier if we had wardrobes and more shelving units but those will come in time! I love our new home. We’ve been here for a week now and it already feels more like home than our old house of two years ever did! Bonus that the landlord is easier to deal with too! Anyway enough of my house gushing, I’ll move on to what this post is actually about now. PMA aka positive mental attitude. Continue reading

IVF#1 Cracked.

I cracked. On Saturday morning to be exact. 6dp5dt (6 days past, 5 day old embryo transfer) and I cracked. I woke up at 6AM with such bad cramps that they brought tears to my eyes. I went to the toilet for a wee and noticed the spotting. I’d had brown spotting for three days straight at this point and on that day it was heavier. This unsettled me as this is a usual sign that my period is on it’s way. I went back to bed willing sleep to come back, to distract from the pain and worry. After about an hour the thoughts had stepped up a gear. You know the thoughts, is this bad, what does this mean, is this a good sign? By 8AM I couldn’t stand it any longer. I went to the bathroom and fished out the pregnancy test that was leftover from before we started IVF. The test that my husband didn’t even know existed. If he had known about it he would have thrown it out before I could get near it. He had banned me from testing until our official test day. Continue reading

IVF#1 Seven Days.

Today is day four of our twelve day, two week wait. Yeah, work that one out! In other words I am 4dp5dt! For those new to trying to conceive lingo (including me, I’m still learning) that means I am 4 days past our transfer of a 5 day old embryo. So if I could just loop back on myself and repeat that we are on day 4 of our 11 day wait. Just under halfway through! Continue reading